St Patrick's Day....Oh The Drama!!!

It has taken me the best part of a week to muster the energy and the words to describe St. Patricks Night...

St Patricks Night was actual....ok....But, then it wasn't my Drama....For once!!!

What can I say? I went out with the people who I have grown close to in the past few months...Sarah, Shane, Steve, Matt, Jodie and her friend....It took a while for me to be convinced to come out, but I'm glad I did....It was just the night....Out of respect to the others, I don't really want to go into it, but it is in the process of being sorted.

There were no physical fights....just a few issues arose.....But we're cool.

Definitely want to frequent Woking a bit more though....My time in hibernation has ended....I'm ready to venture back out!!! Yee-Haaa!!!

p.s Managed to accumulate a few St Paddy's Day hats!!! Wicked!!!

Ian and Ashley

I don't know where it came from. I don't know if it were the alcohol. I don't even know if we all got one.... But, thank you for knowing exactly what to say even tho you're sooooooo many miles away.... I Love You Guys too and Miss you so so so much....Need your hugs and a much needed week of Alcohol-Fulled Boogying!!!

Much Love Always...

xXxXx

Random Thought of the Day

Where are all the good men dead???

In the Heart...

Or in the Head???

Public Apology - Even Though It Was Technically Not My Fault!!!

To the driver of the car who stopped and gave me way to exit my parent's driveway....Please accept my sincerest apologies - because I feel really bad -

I honestly didn't know the TWAT behind you wouldn't stop and I do hope the bumper of your car isn't pranged too bad.....

Bet you're thinking you'll never give way to someone else again!!!!

Kisses

xXx

Two Girls, Several Bottles of Wine and Three Hot Naked Guys!!! What More Could You Ask For On A Friday Night???

I've tried during the duration of this weekend to put into words the events of Friday Night...And I actually can't!!!

I'll just say this -

It was meant to be a girlie night in, lots of wine, gossiping, bitching etc....Well, it started out that way, but by the time the night was over for me and Sarah....Three of my guy mates (actually, two that I knew, Shane and Dave and their cute mate, Kevin) had turned up (drunk!). No sooner had they come thru my door, had they stripped to their boxers and demanded the code to the gym downstairs. They'd been down there barely Ten Minutes before they wandered back up, cuts and bruises and scrapes all over their bodies....Apparently, they'd fallen off the treadmill by putting it on fast and trying to jump on to it!!!!
Anyway, on their return back to the flat they proceeded to strip completely and it was so surreal to have three naked men in my flat with no other friend as a buffer!!!

There's really nothing else I can say about the night....other than it was highly surreal and I'm sure I'm not gonna see those guys in the same light again, having seen their dinkles and all and also having been made to judge who was the most Trimmed!!! Not a judgement I wanted to make at all!!!

All the boys eventually put themselves to bed which was quite sweet really and I had to tuck Shane in, but it was fine...

All of us were awake at 7.30am (so so so very wrong seeing as none of us got to bed til about 3am!!!) as Shane, Dave and Kevin had to go to work.... Dave made us all tea - which I guess was a slight compensation for the mayhem of the night before!!!

Quote of the Night...

Sarah: "I'm not shagging them....I'm sleeping with you!!!!!"

Me: "Should I be Scared?!?!?!?"

Friday Thought....

In my office, there's a notice on the wall which simply states:

"Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, Champagne in one hand - Chocolate in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and screaming WOO-HOO - What a Ride!!!"

How absolutely Fantabulous....And very, very true!!! Enjoy!

xXx

Thursday Night Dinner with Sarah, Shane and Matt...

After the few emotional weeks that I have been having (a blog, well an update, will be up soon about that...and to explain) it was decided that Sarah, Shane and Matt would come round for a beautiful dinner, lovingly prepared by my fair self of Spag Bol, Pasta and the best tasting Cheesy Garlic Bread I've had in a long time!!! Yum - :-) ......Mmmm, even if I do say so myself!! Hehe...

I must admit, it was amazing to have some friends round me right now and the evening was just lovely, we always have a laugh no matter what....This is the third week, actually, that the four of us have done dinner and , well, "something", together (quite grown up really - think of it as a more relaxed dinner party type of thing, Nice)...Tonight, we chose to have Movie Night. Movie of choice? The Grudge. Next week, it's the promise of Matt cooking....Mmm, he assures us he can't cook and Shane's offered to teach him....Oh my Gawd...There's gonna be mayhem in my kitchen next week!!! Note to self - Buy candles for our next dinner night.... ;-P

Shane - might I add is Crazy (Crazy in the coconut, I tell ya)!!!! There's already the offer of going boogying to mend one's broken heart (although, a lovely dinner, great company and great conversation always helps too!) - It's an offer that I am definitely taking up very very very soon, I think....Hell, we're gonna tear up the town!!!

xxx

p.s Shane, lovely, hunny-bun....Please stop trying to head butt my ceiling!!! Try as you might, it's never gonna work, even IF you launch yourself off my sofa!!! Bless ya cottons!!! Love ya xxx

Paul, Jit's Mate.....U is Crazy!!!

Paul...

Babe....Calling me at 1.30am in the MORNING, driving past my house and beeping the horn at same said time will get you pulled over and universally hated by the good people of Woking!!!

You crazy in the coconut!!!

Haha.....

Del-isms!!!!

Recently, my cousin, Del-Cakes (as she is sometimes known) has come out with some cracking quotes that have had me falling off my chair in hysterics!!! I only have I couple that I can remember right now, but keep checking back as I'll update as and when I get them, because they're gems!!!

"I've had a day that's like been Fucked up the Arse without lube!!!"

"She's as Ugly as my Arsehole after a Vindaloo!!!"

(God, I love my cousin for saying the right thing when I'm down!!! xxx)

Excellent..... Fantastically hilarious....

Sadly, at the moment I can see a disturbing pattern emerging....an obsession with Arses?!?!?!

Love you Babes...Even though I haven't seen you in what feels like many many decades...
Thanks for always knowing what to say and how to help...

p.s Forget about El Cunto...He thinks he's soooo funny in that You Tube thing for Nuts....He's just a typical man!!! And you're worth so much more....

xxx

Kelis - Lil' Star

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

If it seems like I'm shining brightly

It's probably a reflection of something you already are

I forget about myself sometime

When there's so many other around

When deep inside you feels darkest

That is where I can always be found

That is where I can always be found

That is where I can always be found

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

If you try to reach out and touch me

You'll see I'm not really that far

I may not be the brightest nor am I the last one you’ll see

But as long as you notice, that’s just fine with me

Everything’s just fine with me

Everything’s just fine with me

There is nothing special about me

I am just a lil star

I’ve been running and jumping,

But barely getting, getting over the bar

I plan on being much more than I am

But that's in due time

But until then I'm guilty

And being humans my crime

Being human that is my crime

Being human that is my crime

Just keep trying and trying

It's just a matter of timing

Though the grinding is tiring

Don't let 'em stop you from smiling

Just keep trying and trying

Sooner of later you'll find it

It's surprising how inspiring

It is to see you shining

Cause in the dark of the night

You're all i can see

And you sure look like a star to me

A Reflection on the last couple of months...

Some of you may not have known, but for the past couple of months or so, I had embarked on a relationship which by last Thursday was completely and utterly over. At the moment, as I write this, we are going through the stage of having space away from each other. Something, I know, as a person I desperately need, to reflect and to heal and to have down time and chill.

I am trying hard to muster the energy to explain the situation and the events that lead to the demise of the short time we spent together, but it is difficult to know where to start....

During the last couple of months it has been mostly an emotional hell...don't get me wrong...Some of it was lovely, and we did have great times together, just chilling and hanging out, getting to know each other and enjoying each others' company. But, it was only the second week before cracks started to appear...aside from feeling like things were going at the speed of light, I was accused of giving him something infectious (not once but twice!!!), cheating and not understanding his problems everytime we spoke. Now, for the record, I dont have anything infectious, neither have I ever cheated on ANYONE in my life and would never cheat. But, the issue I have a problem with is his problem...Not in the sense that he accuses me of not understanding, but differently.

Let me explain...Once upon a time, I used to feel the same as he does...Only, I fear his problem is a hundred times worse. When we first met, he told me he had issues with people in general, that he didn't have friends and that mainly he spent time by himself. I never really thought much about it, I admit, I thought maybe he was just very shy and was shy about going out with people. He told me that his ex-girlfriend lied to him two years ago and his best-mate took her side during the fall-out and he hasn't been able to trust since.

I tried to help him....I really did...I tried to intergrate him in with my friends who I knew were lovely people, but even then that wasn't enough...soon came the endless questioning about if they liked him or not and the analysing of every minute of the time he spent in their company. Arguments over and over again about the same things every night, the more I tried to reassure him and help him see the bigger picture and not just what he thought was happening or him just hearing what he wanted to hear, I think it was making it worse.
Plus I was starting to feel backed up into a corner...We actually split a few weeks ago, but things were becoming hazy, we were talking all the time and still hanging out, he was starting to make me make promises that I wasn't feeling comfortable with, but not just once, but nearly everyday - the same thing all the time, it was too much to handle sometimes. I would try to explain I couldn't make those promises to him because we weren't together anymore, that I could give him the alternative where neither of us would get hurt, but he would take it the wrong way. Everytime we'd argue, I would forgive him because I understood that he wasn't used to the things that were happening and I would try and teach him how to deal with it. But, it got to the stage where I thought even forgiving his actions at the moment when he was angry was wrong...He wasn't realising that he was hurting me alot aswell.

It wasn't the problems that rose to the surface that hurt, but also the under-lying problems that would manifest itself during conversation...It soon began to feel like I had to tip-toe on eggshells around him with whatever I said to him. Little things....He would complain that I wasn't opening up enough to him, so when I did, sharing stories of good times with friends etc, he would go quiet and confess that he was jealous of the past I have compared to the past he has...I never knew what to do. He would see the pictures round the house that I have of the eras that have come and gone, of people who meant so much to me and go quiet and ignore me as if I had done something wrong....How could I cope with that. Someone who said they loved me for who I was, was stopping me share that with them and making me feel like a horrid and terrible person for it... How does that work?

I did try so hard to help, to be there, to encourage and to make him realise that not all people are nasty, that there are lovely people out there, and that the way people deal with things when they are young is never the way people deal with things when they are older....wiser...and maturer.
But, regardless of that, it was never enough....
I had suggested counselling and he's doing it...well, started the process to be counselled, so I'm hoping he will be ok.

A reflection on myself of the last couple of months?.....
I dont know, having not had a relationship for about 4years, this really was a ball-breaker...enough to put you off for life!!! And you know what? I think singledom is absolutely fantastic...for me!!! Yes, I like the fact there was that other person in my life for a while, but.....I think regardless of the issues that arose, I don't think he was the one...obviously not the one THE ONE, but you know. But, it was definitely nice to have that feeling again. No doubt, at some point I feel it again, but til then....it's just a load of down-time for me....

And I'm just peachy with that....

Ice Skating and Bowling on Thursday 1 March 2007

Thursday night was absolutely frickin' hilarious!!!

Sarah, Shane, Matt and I went Ice Skating and Bowling, but not after Shane had cooked us a beautiful and well-balanced dinner of Fajitas, Salad and Wedges and it was Yum!!!

Now, I've been Ice Skating before, years ago....many moons ago in fact when I was about 14-15, the Ice Disco at the Spectrum was the place to be!!! And so much so that I actually had Speed Skating boots and an Ice Hockey shirt adorned with the Number 21 and LaChance written on it!
But, Oh My God!!! I've never been more petrified in my life....It was like I'd never seen an Ice Skating Rink before, let alone actually Skated before!!! I spent much of my time clinging on to the side of the rink, it's weird!!! Definitely gonna get a few refresher lessons and do it more on a regular basis as I reckons I'd love to use it as a form of exercise!!!
Bowling was just as fun....I came last.....but I dont mind that, coz I am just really really bad!!!!
Altho, however, I dont know what the people on the next lane were doing as seemed to be having a HILARIOUS evening.

Please also note, I've never ever going near that machine that Shane won my bear out of ever again!!! Why? Because it's pure evil!!! Truly, it is. £1 and you win every time - but they never tell you it's Frickin' difficult to try and pull a bloody bear out..the enticement is fraudulent. The boys had been on about 4 different games and Sarah and I were still on the same bloody thing! Grrrrrrr.......

Anyways, I fun night was had by all....Regardless of the fact that we all felt like we had a hang-over the next day....weird!!! No, no alcohol was involved at all!!! Haha......