It's Been A Blast...But...

Hey...
Thought I'd blog on here as I haven't for such a long time! I'm getting increasingly bad at that, as I have been using my MySpace account for such things these days...But, what I have to say today...I can do from the safety of this blog page, without having to worry about certain people prying!
A few months back, both me and a good friend of mine decided to set up our Media company (we'd been thinking about it for a while and eventually decided to put it to fruition...The only thing that was holdig us back for quite some time, was choosing a suitable name! How stupidly girlie is that???)
Shortly after this decision, I embarked on a personal project with Ed Winslet...And had pretty much been championing him since day one. It was agreed that I should help him maintain a local fan base in Surrey and manage him. We started off good and strong and things were going very well indeed. But, lately, there seems to be an animousity between manager and artist, that I possibly find it hard to deal with. there haven't been any rows and disagreements, nothing that could have led to the current state of our working relationship...Possibly, I feel we have come to the end of the line...
Obviously, I do feel sad about it....Hell, there were fun times...But, all good things must come to an end!
With Ed, I feel that he has been doing it, plugging it and fighting for it, by himself for all too long...It's difficult to let someone in without them feeling like "all the rest", when thats the case...I don't fault him for it, I'm sure I would be exactly the same, if I allowed someone in, it would take some time to adjust, to realise, yes - there is another person fighting for the same cause as me and who is on the same side! Unfortunately for Ed, I'm not about to stick around and weather the storm...
Why? Because, at the end of the day, I had a goal at the start of this...I was setting up my company...The time spent helping Ed detracted from that goal, detracted from the purpose of what I was trying to achieve.
There are several elements that are causing me to re-think everything to do Ed...But I will not go into it...I will stay respectful of the situation.

QUIZAGE!!!!

1) Are you in a complicated "love" situation? HELL NO!!! (FOR ONCE!!! LOL)
2) Do you hate more than 3 people? HATE IS SUCH A STRONG WORD...DETEST...LOATHE...DESPISE - ANY OF THOSE WILL DO.
4) How many houses have you lived in? 2 HOUSES & 2 APARTMENTS.
5) Favorite candy bar? KIT-KAT...YUM YUM YUM :o)
6) Have you ever tripped someone? OH YES....LOL
7) Least favorite school subject? MATHS...URGH
8) How many pairs of shoes do you own? GOD KNOWS....AND I HAVE MANY MANY MANY TRAINERS
9) Do you own a Britney Spears CD? I'M ASHAMED TO SAY YES!
10) Have you ever thrown up in public? ON MORE THAN ONE OCCASSION...AND NOT ALWAYS DRUNK EITHER!
11) Name one thing that is always on your mind? MUSIC MUSIC MUSIC
12) Favorite genre of music? RnB, SOUL, HIP-HOP, POP, ALTERNATIVE, ACOUSTIC...
13) What's your zodiac sign? LEO
14) What time were you born? 8.58AM
15) Do you like beer? IT'LL DO (IF ALREADY DRUNK)
16) Have you made a prank phone call? NEVER.....HHMMM, MAYBE I SHOULD....
17) What is the most embarrassing CD you own? NICOLA HOLT (FROM BB1) "ITS ONLY A GAME" GIVEN TO ME BY THE RECORD COMPANY WHEN i WAS WORKING THERE.
18) Are you sarcastic? HAHAHA....WHEN YOU CATCH ME AT IT, I'M GOOD!
19) What are your favorite color(s): PURPLE, PINK...NO OTHER COLORS EXIST TO ME!!!
20) How many watches do you own? ONE.
21) Summer or winter? I'M GONNA BE DIFFICULT AND CHOOSE AUTUMN!!!
22) Is anyone in love with you? I HIGHLY DOUBT IT!!!
23) Favorite color to wear? BABY PINK
24) Pepsi or Sprite? SPRITE
26) Where is your second home? MALAYSIA
27) Have you ever slapped someone? YEP YEP YEP....DAMN FELT GOOD!!
29) How many lamps are in your bedroom? ONE
30) How many video games do you own? NONE
31) First pet you owned?A BIRDIE CALLED MAX
32) Ever had braces? NEVER
33) Do looks matter? ER, NO....
34) Do you use chapstick? EEK...YEA
35) Name 3 teachers from school: MRS WORDSWORTH - LOVED HER TO BITS...DRAMA TEACHER, SHE WAS WICKED, BUT DEVELOPED M.S WHEN WE LEFT SCHOOL. MR MILLS - MY FIRST SECONDARY SCHOOL FORM TUTOR. WE GAVE HIM A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN, AND LATER FOUND OUT HE WAS A PAEDOPHILE (OMG!!!) AND HE WAS JAILED AFTER WE LEFT SCHOOL. AND MISS ANNABEL - STRAIGHT-TALKING JAMAICAN RELIGIOUS STUDIES TEACHER....SOOOO FRICKIN' FUNNY - THE ORIGINAL BLACK WOMAN WITH ATTITUDE!!! I LOVED HER!!! OH OH...JUST FOR KICKS...MR COULSON - AN EX-MODEL, PHYSICS TEACHER...HOT HOT HOT!!!
36) American Eagle or Abercrombie: MEH!
37) Are you too forgiving? NOT ANYMORE!
38) How many children do you want? TWO ADOPTED.
39) Do you own something from Hot Topic? WHAT THE FRICK?!?!?
40) Favorite breakfast meal? URGH....DONT DO BREAKFAST!
41) Do you own a gun? HEELLL NO!
42) Ever thought you were in love? I THOUGHT I WAS, BUT I WAS MISTAKEN
43) When was the last time you cried? LAST WEEK, LIKE THE BIG GIRLS BLOUSE THAT I AM!
44) What did u do last night? CHATTED TO A LOVELY GUY CALLED ED!
46) Have you ever called your teacher mommy? NO, BUT I CALLED HER HITLER!
47) Have you ever been in a castle? YEP YEP...
48) Nicknames? BOONDI, PLAYGIRL, YAZ, YAZMINDA, MINDA, MINDY
50) Ever been to Kentucky? FRIED CHICKEN...?....YEP YEP
52) Are you thinking about somebody right now? NOPES
53) Ever called somebody Boo? YEP
54) Do you smoke crack? ERM....
55) Do you own a diamond ring? YEPS
56) Are you happy with your life right now? YEPS
57) Do you like your hair? IN GENERAL, YES, BUT IT'S COMING CLOSE TO RE-DYING TIME!
58) Does anyone like you? WHO KNOWS? I CERTAINLY DONT!
60) What were you doing in May of 1994? WAS POSSIBLY IN BERLIN...
61) Do you own a Backstreet Boys CD? YEP... :o(
62) McDonalds or Wendy's? MACCAS
63) Do you like yourself? I'M OK, NOTHING SPESH
64) Are you closer to your mother or father? ME BAPA
65) Favorite physical feature of the preferred sex? ERM....STRONG ARMS? PREFERABLY WITH A TATTOO ROUND IT...YUM....
66) Are you afraid of the dark? SOMETIMES
67) Have you ever eaten paste? 'CUSE ME?
68) Do you own a web cam? GOD NO....I'D GET INTO TOO MUCH TROUBLE
69) Have you ever stripped? HELL NO....NOBODY'S GET FOR THIS JELLY!! HEAR THAT!
70) Ever broke a bone? NO...THANKS GOD!
71) Are you religious? NOPES
72) Do you chat on AIM often? MSN...YEP YEP
73) Pringles or Lays? NEED YOU ASK? PRINGLES
74) Have you ever broken someone's heart? I THINK I NEED, BUT I THINK HE WAS DELUDED...
75) Full house or Brady Bunch? ???
77) Did you like your high school guidance counselor? HE WAS THE PAEDO...
78) Has anyone ever called you a tease? HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA - ONLY WHEN DRUNK THO.
79) Do you have any pets? NOPE....CAN BABRELY LOOK AFTER MYSELF, LET ALONE ANYONE ELSE.
80) Do u own a car? I DO...MY LITTLE BABY BOO
81) Can you cook? YEPS
82) 3 things that annoy you? NOTHING OFF THE TOP OF MY HEAD, ALTHO THIS SURVEY IS BEGINNING TO DRAG!
84) Money or love? AT THIS SATGE IN THE GAME, I WANT THE CASH
85) Do you have any scars? NOPES
86) What do you want more than anything right now? MY MOUTH TO STOP HURTING...
87) Do you enjoy scary movies? CANT GET ENOUGH
89) Big red or Juicy fruit? NEITHER...YOU MING
90) Do you enjoy greasy food? AHHHH, THERE'S NOTHING BETTER THAN STODGE AFTER A NIGHT OUT!
91) Have you seen all the Rocky movies? DOES ROCKY...HORROR COUNT?
92) Do you own a box of crayons? ER.....
93) Ever had sex in a public place? OOOOHHHHHHHHHHHHH, YES!!!! HEHEHEHEHEHEHE
94) Who was the last person you said I love you to? SO LONG AGO, I DO NOT REMEMBER
95) Who was the last person that made you mad? GRRRRRRRRRR.....I CANT NAME AND SHAME RIGHT NOW....THEY'LL SOON KNOW WHO THEY ARE!
96) What was the last thing that made you cry? I CANT SAY
97) Who was the last person that made you laugh? ANDY B
99) Who was the last person that called you? ME BAPA
100) Who's your cell phone provider? OOOHHHH, T-MOBILE AND VODAPHONE

Is it me or are questions 3, 83, 88 and 98 missing? Probably more too. They must have been tough. For the advanced questionnaires;)

Thou Shall Move On To The Next!!!

In the span of four days, the duration of the May Bank Holiday, my heart feels as though it's been ripped out and shat on from a great height!!!

Bloody men!!! Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!! Why bother?!?!?

I swear I'm taking a vow of Frickin' celibacy....Thats It!!! I've had Frickin' enough!!!
No more....nothing, nada....not until it means something!!!!

Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!!!!!

Simon - Fuck Off!!!

Richy - You too...........Just as bad!!!

Bastards the pair of you's.....

Grrrrrrrrrrrr!!! Grrrrrrrrrrr!!!! GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!

Bom Chicka Wah-Wah

Well, Hello!!!!

To those of you who read my posts, I'm sorry I've been a bit slack in the blog writing process and have been on MySpace waaaaaayyyyyyy too much (Its taken over my life!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!)

Anyways, to bring you up to speed....Not much has happened....Work, Thursday Night Dinners, a few dates....and me being my usual self!!!

Friday night was the first time we'd all been out in about a month (lack of funds is mainly to blame), and it was a pretty cool night....Mission of the night was to collect all five promotional bags from Malibu in the Rat and Parrot (one drink for every two malibu bought)...Somehow, Shane managed to get all five (why he needs them, I'll never figure it out!!! Lol) I managed three....Which isnt a bad effort seeing as I'm a light-weight!!! Lol....
Oh, oh....for some strange reason some members of our party were accused of taking Cocaine upstairs....Ummmm, yea, coz we look like the type of people to do that!!! Nice! Dont hate on us coz we're cool!

Dinner came in the form of Macca D's (Urgh....urgh...urgh!!!), it filled a hole and attempted to soak some of the alcohol up...but, after then, somehow our party started dropping like flies...and in the end it was left to the Thursday Night Dinner crew to live it up!!! And we did!!! Hehe....
Most of it involved us dancing like loons (well, ok, mainly Me) and some of us screaming "Boogie!!!" every now and then (well, ok, mainly Matt), oh, and embarrasing Sarah little sister, Jodie (well, ok, no that's definitely Sarah!!! Hehe). For the first time EVER, I managed to stay the distance! Managed to down the Sambucas without heaving, and managed to sing along to the Baywatch theme tune like I REEEAAAALLLLYYYY meant it. Managed to dirrrty dance with some random, who I swear looked familiar, but I have no clue who he is! Managed to finally meet Saj.

Anyways, whatever....An utterly Fabulous night was had by one and all!!!

Next morning, Sarah, Shane and I were off to Brighton for the day, to try and sunbake in the sun, and work off the hangover. It was a nice day tho, lovely, just to chill on the beach and fall asleep (namely, on Shane - who had turned into a human cushion for the two of us). Had a great relaxing walk along the pier - beautiful!!!
Stopped by Croydon on the way home...To mug Shane off one of his chairs so I can now sit outside on my balcony (Thanx hun, Love ya!!!) and for all three of us to collapse on his bed!!! No sooner had we fallen into a light sleep, then there was a knock on the window....I've never jumped off a bed fast enough...!!! It was Shane's parents, there was a gap in the curtain so I don't know if they saw that we were all in bed together...but how hilarious?!?!?

Hit Woking at about 9pm and in time for a Chinese...which was amazing!!! Yum yum yum...

All in all, a lovely few days...

Yaz is back!!! Bring it on!!!

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Rowan...

Finally met a new friend on Saturday and spent a good ten hours in each others company....The time flew by and it was really nice....After the events of the previous night, it probably wasn't the best idea to drink again, but it helped chill the mood and made it really nice and relaxed....He paid for Chinese when we got hungry and, yea.....it was really nice. He's fun and funny and great to talk to and there was a great connection....on a friend-level....Nothing more, nothing less....

I've noticed a change in myself....I'm more open, accepting and trust my instincts much more now than I ever did....I've become a little more laid-back and self-assured in my decisions and who I allow in my life...And I'm happy with that...So happy...

People like Rowan and Jake from last night...I would have been really shy with and not speak much....But, I've learnt that they will be more accepting the more confident I am...

Does stuff like that come with age? Or experience....??? I'm not sure....But for the first time in ages...I'm happy with that aspect of my life...

I'm not sure where the future lies with Rowan, friend-wise...It's a little difficult to explain....But, in the long-run, I really hope we'll be friends for a long while!!! Plus, we HAVE to go to Chameleon before he goes back to Brighton FOR......EVER!!! Lol.....

Friday Night Drama!!!

So, after not having Thursday Night Dinner for the last two weeks, we all decided to let our hair down Friday Night...Of course, having been paid for the month did swing it largely for us!!! Plus, it was Sarah's workmates (Jake - who is actually the nicest person I've met in a while) last day and so, he had been at the pub since Lunchtime!!!

Anyways, the night was really nice...for the majority of the time...Loads of us were out, and it was just really nice to have a big group of us!!!

But the boys are absolutely frickin' mental when they're really drunk!!! Walking home was a nightmare and left me wanting to take a time out until they calmed down...and Sarah in tears as they caused mayhem all around them. Eventually they calmed down....But, it was just craziness that I'm too too old for!!!

My saviour for the night was actually Jake, who I hadn't met til that night....We're the same age, so it was nice just to have someone to chat to. We went to get Chips as Dave and Sarah had an argument and Shane and Matt wanted to go back into Chameleon!!! Eventually we all made it back to mine....While Shane was attempting Spiderman routines the whole way home!!!

Quote of the night:

" That was ACTUALLY Fuckin' Funny"

- Jake, as Shane was hurled into a bush by Dave, and then couldn't get up!!!

Funniest moment of the night:

"Don't encourage them....DO NOT ENCOURAGE THEM!!!"

- as said by Sarah literally one nano-second before the bush-hurling incident!!! Which, when she turned round and realised what had happened, was - to quote above - Fuckin' Funny!!!!

Whats even funnier is the fact that Sarah had a massive go at him, telling him to get up...and he was asking for help because he stuck....But no one helped!!! Oooppss!!!

No one got any sleep that night....Not really.....Matt decided to sleep in the hallway with his music on!!! Had to confiscate his phone til the morning - But, somewhat naively, Sarah gave it back to him an hour before we all had to get up...And therefore, rest was broken again!!! Plus, I snore!!! Sarah shared my bed....but I was trying so hard for her to sleep before me!!! It wasn't happening!!!
Decidely, it was Jake who got the best sleep...In the Double Blow up Bed and Duvet (Surprising really, as he was the only one who didn't shotgun the bed!!!)....

Oh well.....Looking forward to the next night out!!!

St Patrick's Day....Oh The Drama!!!

It has taken me the best part of a week to muster the energy and the words to describe St. Patricks Night...

St Patricks Night was actual....ok....But, then it wasn't my Drama....For once!!!

What can I say? I went out with the people who I have grown close to in the past few months...Sarah, Shane, Steve, Matt, Jodie and her friend....It took a while for me to be convinced to come out, but I'm glad I did....It was just the night....Out of respect to the others, I don't really want to go into it, but it is in the process of being sorted.

There were no physical fights....just a few issues arose.....But we're cool.

Definitely want to frequent Woking a bit more though....My time in hibernation has ended....I'm ready to venture back out!!! Yee-Haaa!!!

p.s Managed to accumulate a few St Paddy's Day hats!!! Wicked!!!